Things Are Getting Better

I have an interview tomorrow at J. Crew; nobody understands how bad I want it. I went into several high end stores and they wouldn't even give me a chance. I called my mother after being denied at Kate Spade and vented. I was about to give up until my friend made me go at least try at J. Crew. Even getting an interview completely boosted my confidence. My personal style is slightly to a lot edgier (depending on my mood) but I still love J. Crew and love to pair preppy pieces with grungier ones. My mother just wants me to work there because it will probably "clean up my look". Oh mother. 

Elaborating more on my love for J. Crew though...

OKAY SO IM DYING OVER THEIR F/W '12 LOOKBOOK. GIMMERITALL.

I love the mix of textures and patterns. The color blocking is perfect. Everything is just wonderful.

I'm going to be broke working there because I'm going to spend my whole pay check on clothes. It's no   secret that I'm terrible with money >_> 

My last weeks of summer and the lack of clothing purchased

I am just now realizing I have but three or so weeks left of summer and I have barely done anything that I had planned. I haven't gone beach camping, gone to San Francisco to see friends, gone surfing or even got a job. That also means I'm a broke-ass bitch. That being it's really helped my shopping problem that I had during the school year this past year. I am no longer spending all of my money online shopping and on booze. Now I barely have enough for booze (thank god for that).

That also means I've been wearing a lot of my old clothes that I had forgotten about and wearing them differently. It's like getting new clothes but not spending the money. I cut a lot of my old t-shirts into crop tops, wearing my collar from Topshop with whatever I can find, lace socks with my moms old cowboy shoe-boots. I'm working with whatever I have at this point.

Also, I'm going to my best friend's aunt's wedding as her date and I don't know anyone. Meaning I'm taking advantage of an open bar and lying about my age. Weddings are cool.

P.S.
I'm sorta kinda not really dating my other best friend of 6 years.
Life is complicated.

Taking Myself (and this blog) Seriously

It is July 3, 2012. I'm going to be Sophomore in college and about to move into a house. I'm unemployed, broke, have a shopping addiction and I'm going to be completely honest but I am a lot heavier than I ever have been. It seems I have always done this. I have big plans for jobs, getting my career started, going on diets and yet nothing ever seems to happen because I give up easily.

That is going to change today.

Blogging these days has something so wonderful. Blogging is a way of escape for some and a way of emergence to others. You can use a blog as a diary or you can use it to inform and so much more. Today I start taking advantage of what blogging and social media can do for someone. Becoming a fashion editor/stylist is not going to happen without a little of my own PR.

Expect to see a post at least every other day.

Have a lovely day Earthlings.

The Mess That Is My Life (with pictures!)

I have 5 more weeks of the semester left, meaning the end of my Freshman year in college. I honestly do not feel mentally old enough to not be a Freshman. I can barely take care of myself, I mean my mother sometimes needs to remind me over the phone to shower. Also, I have recently discovered how terrible my ADD really is. It's making it impossible to get through the weeks. I spend hours stressing and having anxiety attacks because I simply cannot sit down and think and focus. I hate my brain.
Also men are terrible.

One last thing...
WHY IS IT IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME TO GET AN INTERNSHIP THIS SUMMER?

It's funny, they say it's all about who you know. Except, when you don't know anyone; what are you supposed to do? I'm really worrying about this. How am I supposed to meet anyone if no one will just give me a chance?
The fashion industry is killing me slowly.

Actually one more thing...

Here's my new shirt. Hell yes for Buffalo Exchange ($6)